Friends

Will the episode where Anna goes back in time turn out in my favor? I sure hope so! Sam is in danger obviously. All we need now is worried-the-fuck-out-Dean and some self!hating!Sam. =D Am I right!? I sure do love re-watching S2(duh!) but I don't want to have to do it in spite of that episode. Moving on! I am still at a loss with the whole 'it's always been you' shit.. What does that even mean? Please fill me in. And yes, my brain is shrinking from reading too much fic. Forgive me.

I'm not trying to 'bash' anyone or anything! But WTF is with both Jared and Jensen getting married in the same year? And not to each other, I might add. ;P

I just find it strange. "I'm getting married to Dan.." "Oh serious!? 'Cause me and Gen are too!" "Me first!" "NO ME!" :/ Am I the only one?

My hair looks like this, ATM:


I'm thinking about fixing it to this:

I think Dean needs to date someone that looks like this:

That maybe does stuff like this:

 
I slept 24 hours and my vagina is bleeding.

3 1/2 hours til 2010 and I'm already in a piss poor mood. My friend said she'd be here at 9 and that she'd call me before 9! It's 20 minutes til so I call her and she says she's going to be here in an hour because she just got to her other friends house. I feel like telling her to spend the entire night with this girl.. like a plan is a plan, ya' know? It's not like she has a good excuse like traffic or she lost her phone. Fuck this!

Okay, so this is an odd idea.. and people are going to think I'm nuts. I already know my mom does. With all these new laws about taxing fries and medical marijuana. I say, we all who believe in same sex marriage, and the term 'live and let live' should move to another country, make our own rules and have the government pay for the cost of moving.

If they're going to ban us from smoking inside places whats next? We can't smoke outside? We can't smoke period? It's one thing if they don't want us smoking near others. But then if thats the case, they need to do the whole smoke seatings or smoke lounges. Maybe they'll ban alcohol again and see how that goes. 

And weed, I mean what the fuck? How does smoking pot hurt anyone? It might make people less ambitious but why do we have the right to take that away from people? A little less seriousness in the world wouldn't exactly hurt. A little more free love please.

Then the whole illegalization of prostitution! It would be SAFER if it was, then that way the prostitutes wouldn't be taken advantage of by pimps, they would be tested. Like maybe, that bunny ranch deal. I don't know how they work that out legally, but that should be how it is.

Gay marriage being under question is  ridiculous. This is the most simple of them all!!!! HOW IS LOVE HURTING ANYONE!? They say that gay people are promiscuous when this is exactly the opposite. They're never happy. Gay people are going to ruin the sanctity of marriage? Straight people have already ruined it. Them getting married would even make the percentages would make it better.

Oh and abortion is going to no longer be paid for? Oh yeah because woman are just being so frivolous and having such fun with the fact that they get a free abortion.. such an easy decision? something they want to do? For Gods sacks.

The world is crazy and I know there are worse laws in other countries.. or rather less that fuck everything up. But there needs to be a balance. Have you researched Denmark(I believe thats the place. It was on Oprah; ha)? Well we need to take a page from their book. Getting a year off when getting pregnant? College paid for? Barely any crimes? The taxes suck, but everything it pays for makes up for it.

Last thought! I think our new country, though this is a seriosuly discriminating and hearsh rule, but I have to say it. I think we'll test everyone for sexually transmitted diseases before being allowed in, so that won't be spread around. and also nudity at beaches will be legal. =D Maybe even certain nightclubs where sex in public could be legal. And free condoms will be given out. Like, necessities should be free.

Sometimes I wonder why I turned out so odd and damaged. I was normal and my childhood was happy. I watch Intervention and it seems that every one that they show has a  reason why they turned to those addictions. I just don't get it. A part of me wants to go under hypnosis so I can find out if there is something I shut out, but then, what if it's so bad that it messes me up even more? Le sigh.

Okay so, I was just thinking about how when I speak of my parents it's always negative and I don't want you all to think my home life is all shit, because it isn't. When I come on here it's usually to either share fandom related things or to unload and escape.

And these are one of those moments; ha. Lately I've had money because of the college fund I took out. I loaned my parents a chunk of it and the rest I blew. Since my friend has a car we go out to eat. And my mom resents me because I go out to eat and am able to buy more expensive 'products' than she. Yeah, I overspend and at times get sticky fingers, but I'm sick of feeling GUILTY for being able to buy things for myself.

I'm going to get a job soon and be able to drive and save money for a car.. and even then, am I supposed to hand over my money because they aren't finally secure? It just sucks because I need the money I get, and if I give it to them than it's going to be gone and they'll still be in the same situation and coming back for more later.

Anway! I'm going to apply online for jobs near by and then in a few days check in all dressed proper to talk to all the managers. I want to make an impression even if they're not hiring at the moment.

24 hours til 2010, you guys! It's pretty freaky, I think. I tried to upload ANOTHER vid to tell ya'll Happy New Year and all that, but again it wouldn't work. Whatever. Next year when I've got all my new gadgets, it will all be fantastic, right!? What are all your plans for tomorrow night? I'm going to spend it with the rents and the friend. I love watching Dick Clark and stuffing my face; ha.

Hopefully my friend and I stay in this groove we're in because we've been having a lot of fun together lately and I want it to stay that way for a long time. When we're on bad terms I just think about what Bobby said.. they're supposed to make you miserable! Proof she's my family, aye!?

Much love.

Credit to my lovely Jessica!